THE BLOOD OF JESUS CLEANSES YOU FROM ALL SIN AND GUILT (1 JOHN 1:7). JESUS IS THE DELIVERER!!
Subconscious - n. that portion of mental activity of which the individual has little or no conscious perception.
Subconscious - a. occurring without conscious perception, or with only slight perception on the part of the individual - said of mental processes of reactions.
Abuse - n. to use ill; to maltreat; to misuse, to use with bad motives or wrong purposes; to violate; to defile; to deceive, to impose on; to treat harshly; to use insulting, coarse, or bad language about or to; to revile.
Rejection is the basic cause of abuse. All types of rejection work to destroy the mental and emotional health of an individual.
Read II Tim. 3:1-6 and watch for these characteristics in my life.
I had often wondered about certain problems I had: (1) an inordinate desire to please, (2) inability to say no to things I didn't want to do, (3) always setting goals, working hard to accomplish them and then stopping short of success, (4) always feeling I had to do things better than anyone else and (5) trying to make everything around me and about me look better than I thought it was.
In September of 1983, I cut off part of my finger in an accident loading a horse. It was the first time I had need of a hospital in many years. I was put to sleep and my finger was sewn into my palm. The next day I was supposed to be quiet and take it easy.
For five years, I had been trying to help my mom get resettled after my dad's death. At times she would tell me what she wanted me to do and I would start to do it. Right in the middle of my doing it, she would suddenly without telling me change her mind, and have one of my brothers doing an entirely different thing.
Two years ago I took her to Maine to see my brother. Back in Chattanooga she accused me of wanting and trying to kill her. This really puzzled me because I thought we got along very well.
After the operation, I was being still on the sofa praying. I asked God "Why can't I help mom? Why does she think I want to kill her?
I had a vision or dream, some might say a flashback. I was standing in the room I had as a child. I was high near the ceiling. I was witnessing a terrible thing. A woman was beating, not whipping, a child. I went down to see who this was and to stop it; I saw it was my mom. I went beside the bed, bent down and looked; the child was me.
Thinking I was hallucinating because of the drugs from the operation the day before, I quickly decided to get up and get busy. One handed work was hard to find, so I swept the carport.
My brother called me or I called him. Since I sounded a little funny, he asked what was wrong. I told him next time they could sew me up awake. Then I related this story to him. He was silent, then he asked me if I didn't remember that day. He said he had told my dad that if my mom didn't stop beating me for no reason, he would kill her. The only words said in the scene were by my dad; he said to my mom that he would kill her if he ever heard of this happening again. I was not a small child. I was ten or twelve years old when the beatings stopped. For some reason, I simply cannot remember this today. He thought her fear that I wanted to kill her came from the guilt for what she did to me.
About eight to nine years before this incident, Gene and I had fasted and prayed for me for two years. When I got the Baptism of the Holy Spirit, there was only initial joy. Immediately, I began to have more fears than before, my emotions were out of control and I couldn't think clearly. God does not give us a spirit of fear but a spirit of power, love, calm, well-balanced mind, discipline and self control.
Neither of us knew about deliverance from demons, so God had to teach us. After a long time of praying one night, Gene began to call out Rejection, Rebellion, Bitterness, etc. I was very different after this. I had to learn how to stay free by studying the Bible. No one in our town believed a Christian could have a demon, so we had to rely on God and His Word.
I was doing very well until the scene passed before my eyes and I learned of my early life. Immediately, I began to have times of panic for no apparent reason. I was hostile. I noticed a panic when those who had authority over me were present. I would become fearful if a policeman came near me, and when the pastor or principal came into my room. I felt I had to challenge Gene's decisions.
We prayed and felt that I needed more deliverance. Gene was led to call out the same things as before. We realized at this point that we were working on my subconscious mind.
As you can see, abuse (whether verbal, physical, mental or sexual) has a deep and lasting effect on a person. It affects all their relationships and all they do. This includes neglect.
II Tim. 3:2 says that in the end times people will be lovers of self, utterly self-centered. Most child abuse comes from selfish parents. When a child is neglected or rejected, damage is done to them emotionally, mentally and physically.
Emotionally these children are unsure of themselves, and everyone or almost everyone around them. Often they are unable to be still or concentrate.
Emotions are always at an extreme pitch.
Mentally they cannot trust others or themselves. They have difficulty learning due mainly to being emotionally unsound. Some become so fearful they are always watching everyone around them. Some are pressured so by rejection, they go to unnatural or extreme means to succeed. Lying does not seem so bad if it will stop the abuse.
Many become schizophrenic , paranoid and psychotic. Schizophrenics are double or many minded, and unable to cope with reality (James 1:4-6). Some become catatonic either rejecting any activity or extremely active and talkative, and have hallucinations (II Tim. 3:3). The paranoid mind has delusions of grandeur and persecution. Psychotics simply refuse to acknowledge reality (II Tim. 3:4): the town bum, drunks, sexual perverts, etc. Many that we call hypocrites are in this group (II Tim. 3:5).
Many times an abused child will mildly or completely neglect themselves to convey the idea to others that they are worthless or at fault. By their attitudes they invite sickness, etc. Or, they go to the other extreme - they must always look beautiful to hide their real selves.
If a child is beaten, it will when it becomes an adult tend to do the same thing to its children. I know that God helped me in this area. As a small child coming home from school one day after a particularly hard time, a voice told me "You don't have to be like your people, you have the ability to choose which way you will go". With my children, I would never touch to punish when I was really mad or upset.
Since these senseless beatings have no reason, the child becomes confused and frustrated. Many work extremely hard to prove themselves.
In mental abuse, children follow pretty much the same pattern as physical abuse. Eventually they accept or partially accept the verbal abuse as true.
Dishonest dealing with children makes them fearful of trusting. Hence they have trouble trusting God because parents who are authority figures have not been trustworthy. They always have nervous problems.
Sexually abused children have all the above problems. Hate figures in all abuse, but is extreme in a sexually abused child. The abused child may take up homosexuality, sadism, etc., and become frigid. Any form of abuse can lead to mental illness.
First, the child who has been abused must learn to forgive. When tempted to hate again, the child must not let it rule him or her.
Come to understand that the parent or abuser has had much trouble in his or her life. If the person is young, you should seek help and protection from this abuser.
If you have had unexplained nervousness, fears lying, inability to trust, always having to prove yourself in dead-heat competition, hate and hatefulness, strong leaning to sexual perversions, hypocritical, fantasy, inability to cope with life or people, extreme self-centeredness, extreme emotions, bad temper, depression, confusion, frustrations, being victimized or unable to control your actions, then you probably need deliverance in your subconscious mind as well as conscious mind.
After deliverance, you will need to learn what the Bible says about each area of deliverance and teach yourself to obey. Without the demons inside, you should be able to obey God's instructions. Ask God for understanding of yourself. Learn to think differently than before.
For example: Most abused people have a problem feeling gratitude because they have been victimized repeatedly. They cannot be glad or grateful when something good happens because they fear it has a price to be paid. Learn Deut. 28:47 - to serve the Lord in gratitude of heart and mind for all that he has blessed you with (an example of what parents' attitudes should be).
Remember Jesus died for you before you were ever born. Forgive everyone to the degree that you can truly pray for them to be saved and receive blessings of God. Realize that their troubles are probably as great or greater than yours.
Realize it is not entirely or maybe not at all your fault.
Break all inheritance from ancestors' sins that would give you demons in the subconscious mind. These include idol worship (Masons, occult, cults, Catholic, etc.), sexual sins (bastards, incest, adultery, homosexuality, etc.) and ungodly attitudes of the parents.
Start with basic deliverance in subconscious mind and conscious mind (Rejection, Bitterness and Rebellion). Then call for demon spirits that went in from the abuser (Spirits of Abuse). Call out the Victim Spirit (advertises to be victimized).
BEATING, DISCONTENT, COVETOUSNESS, LETHARGY,
HATE, DEJECTION, STEALING, COMPROMISE,
GUILT, HOPELESSNESS, KLEPTOMANIA, MASTURBATION,
RETALIATION, SUICIDE, MATERIAL LUST, DEPRESSION,
DESTRUCTION, DEATH (WELCOME FANTASY), FOOD LUST, PRIDE,
POUTING, MORBIDITY, GREED, HOMOSEXUALITY,
CURSING, HEAVINESS, CRITICISM, DESPAIR,
BERATING, GLOOM, INTOLERANCE, EGO,
INFERIORITY, FALSE BURDENS, IRRITABILITY, HARLOTRY,
LONELY, WORRY, COMPETITION, DESPONDENCY,
TIMID AND SHY, DREAD, DRIVING, FEAR OF AUTHORITY,
INADEQUACY, APPREHENSION, ARGUMENT, RAPE,
INEPTNESS, NERVOUS, GRIEF, DISGUST,
SUSPICION, EXCITEMENT, SORROW, LYING AND DECEIT (FOR PROTECTION),
JEALOUSY, SCHIZOPHRENIA, HEARTACHE,
SPITE, MENTAL ILLNESS, HEARTBREAK, EXPOSURE,
HATRED, RETARDED, CRYING (FOR CONTROL OF OTHERS),
CRUELTY MADNESS FRIGIDITY, DISCOURAGED ,
CONTENTION, MANIC DEPRESSIVE, SADNESS, DEFEATED,
DAYDREAMING, PARANOIA, LAZINESS, PRETENSE,
FANTASY, UNFAIRNESS, DEATH, MURDER,
DISTRUST, FEAR OF JUDGMENT, CURSING, SADISM,
PRETENSION, FEAR OF CONDEMNATION, GOSSIP, BACKBITING,
UNREALITY, FEAR OF ACCUSATION, MOCKERY, HYPERACTIVE,
ESCAPE, FEAR OF REPROOF, BELITTLING, DRIVING,
INDIFFERENCE, SENSITIVENESS, RAILING, NO PEACE,
STOICISM, HALLUCINATIONS, IDLENESS, AGGRAVATED,
PASSIVITY, NIGHTMARES, SELF-PITY, FANTASY LUST,
SLEEPINESS, CONFUSION, SELF-REWARD, PROCRASTINATION,
ALCOHOL, FRUSTRATION, SELF-HATRED, LISTLESSNESS,
DRUGS, FORGETFULNESS, SELF-AWARENESS, FUNK,
QUARRELING, INCOHERENCE, SELF-CONDEMNATION, INDECISION,
FIGHTING, DOUBT, SELF-PROTECTION, INCEST,
TORMENT, UNBELIEF, SEXUAL IMPURITY,
HARASSMENT, SKEPTICISM, LUST
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